Scientists go crazy for conferences. We always have an internal competition about who can collect the most freebies from exhibitors; we love a good party with professors dancing on tables and although most of us are introverts, we love to accidently hang out and network with other passionate nerds. Working in the public sector and… Continue reading Sometimes I forget
“Those who have a 'why' to live, can bear with almost any 'how'.”- Victor Frankl A few weeks ago, we had a seminar by Dr Paula Fernandes, a psychologist from the Femina Breast Clinic, Pretoria. She counsels women who are diagnosed with breast cancer and have to make difficult decisions with regards to genetic testing… Continue reading What is your theme song?
I never wanted to be the red eyed, slurring, drunk lady at the bar who shares her tragic story with whomever is unfortunate enough to wait a little too long for their cocktail/beer/brannewyn & Coke. We all have that one aunty whose service providers are always unreasonable and that one friend whose boyfriends are always… Continue reading Graciously vulnerable
In the future, when I have enough time travel points to allow me to travel faster than the speed of light (which might be uncomfortable since I get motion sickness) and I'm allowed to return to some past moments, this would be one of them. I'm sitting at my vanity table, reflecting back at myself… Continue reading Trapped in amber
In Monday night’s dream I was lost in the fertility clinic, which looked like an enormous mall, complete with coffee shops, clothes stores and movies. I saw an old Professor from my work, who is very chatty and I started running away from him, avoiding his gaze, evading his questions and hoping he won’t see… Continue reading Down go the pills and the emotions
My husband went for a 14 km run, hammered some unexpecting pieces of wood in the garage and went to fly his newly modified model helicopter. I watched Friends clips on YouTube, went for breakfast with my mom and bought sushi for dinner. We watched the movie version of the book I just finished reading,… Continue reading Converting disappointment
It's easier to write when I'm overwhelmed with happiness or sadness but this morning I'm struggling to find the metaphors and the adjectives to describe the incredible uncertainty I'm feeling. We had our first artificial insemination (AI/IUI) on Saturday and I'm trying my best to just stay 14% positive, 14% hopeful, 14% realistic. 14% is… Continue reading Being 14% hopeful
19 July 2017 I really don't want to go for a run. In Winter. At night. In public. I had my first scan for our first round of IUI (artificial insemination) this morning and the Doctor was happy to see multiple little follicles in both ovaries. I was going to be as healthy as I… Continue reading Running in the dark
"I'm here for my semen analysis..." he whispered self-consciously. The secretary looked at my husband sympathetically: "Good luck Sir, but unfortunately you're on the wrong floor...". After two more wrong turns, every secretary in the building was aware of the lost man, desperate to give his sample to whoever had an empty coffee cup, as… Continue reading The verdict: grab your calendar, map and compass!
I'm sitting on top of my bed with the sun washing over my toes, tea incubating in my throat. I'm at home due to unforeseen panel beating issues. Let's just say that we've taken three Uber rides to go pick up my car just to be told that it's not ready for collection. I am… Continue reading Ah, ah, ah, ah, Stayin’ alive! Stayin’ alive!