Infertility schmertility · Metaphysics and philosophy

Secret stress & panic rooms

It happens unexpectedly. At 4 o'clock in the morning I wake from a dream where a panel of ex-boyfriends are told that I'm infertile and that they all probably dodged the same wonky, polycystic bullet. The grandfather clock chimes: 04:15 - I start thinking about managing the lab team since our boss is on leave… Continue reading Secret stress & panic rooms

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Infertility schmertility · Metaphysics and philosophy

The Artist & The Scientist

Cytoplasmic rapids are rushing over molecular structures. Cells are vibrating and dividing to the rhythm of my biological "ticks" and "tocks". My mitochondria power stations are a bit slow to start this morning. Although it's early, a board meeting is in session and the gods are discussing the rearrangement of my ancestors' DNA. Just like… Continue reading The Artist & The Scientist

ALS/MND Stories · Infertility schmertility · Metaphysics and philosophy

Graciously vulnerable

I never wanted to be the red eyed, slurring, drunk lady at the bar who shares her tragic story with whomever is unfortunate enough to wait a little too long for their cocktail/beer/brannewyn & Coke. We all have that one aunty whose service providers are always unreasonable and that one friend whose boyfriends are always… Continue reading Graciously vulnerable

Infertility schmertility · Metaphysics and philosophy

Wondering, wandering, wonderful wonder woman

What do you do when you don't know what to do? No, uh... I'm asking you! I don't quite know how to stumble forward. I am incredibly confused. I don't know what to write and so I force myself to start a story without plot, heroes or... even high school vampires. I start washing a… Continue reading Wondering, wandering, wonderful wonder woman

Fertility Clinic Stories · Infertility schmertility

Down go the pills and the emotions

In Monday nightโ€™s dream I was lost in the fertility clinic, which looked like an enormous mall, complete with coffee shops, clothes stores and movies. I saw an old Professor from my work, who is very chatty and I started running away from him, avoiding his gaze, evading his questions and hoping he wonโ€™t see… Continue reading Down go the pills and the emotions

Infertility schmertility · Metaphysics and philosophy

Ah, ah, ah, ah, Stayin’ alive! Stayin’ alive!

I'm sitting on top of my bed with the sun washing over my toes, tea incubating in my throat. I'm at home due to unforeseen panel beating issues. Let's just say that we've taken three Uber rides to go pick up my car just to be told that it's not ready for collection. I am… Continue reading Ah, ah, ah, ah, Stayin’ alive! Stayin’ alive!