There are mornings when I wake up and I am convinced that this pregnancy was all just a vivid dream but then I feel my little cat snuggling against my growing belly and the nausea hits like clockwork. Every day it’s becoming a bit more real and for the past week we have started taking… Continue reading Learning to fly
TWW, PUPO, FET, ICSI, IVF, POAS, HCG, 6DP5DT - I find myself on the edge of Google - in limbo once again, drifting between moments of complete calm and panicky 5 minute attacks of overanalysing symptoms meant to only confuse. We had two embryo shooting stars transferred back into their galaxy last week Tuesday and… Continue reading In vivo forces (IVF)
"I have a "higher level" question for you Dr Y... If we force people who are not supposed to have children, to have children, are we not tempting fate? Won't we increase our chances of having an abnormal product? Where is the line?" I was both devastated and impressed by my husband's question. Our doctor… Continue reading IVF: That’s what’s up!
Scented candles and bubble bath. Blues music (Hozier) and a cup of concentrated Earl Grey tea. I'm floating in the waves, preparing for my blind date. My cat drinks the bath water, plays with the bubbles and curls up on the outfit I need to wear. Cats are so chilled about dating. I'm shaving, waxing,… Continue reading Blind date with destiny
In Monday night’s dream I was lost in the fertility clinic, which looked like an enormous mall, complete with coffee shops, clothes stores and movies. I saw an old Professor from my work, who is very chatty and I started running away from him, avoiding his gaze, evading his questions and hoping he won’t see… Continue reading Down go the pills and the emotions
"I'm here for my semen analysis..." he whispered self-consciously. The secretary looked at my husband sympathetically: "Good luck Sir, but unfortunately you're on the wrong floor...". After two more wrong turns, every secretary in the building was aware of the lost man, desperate to give his sample to whoever had an empty coffee cup, as… Continue reading The verdict: grab your calendar, map and compass!
Something that will calm the nerves and anaesthetise the butterflies in my stomach: “One poppy seed muffin and one black coffee, please!”. I have left home at 05:30 to come through to the business Mecca of South Africa – Sandton. I ate my breakfast at a 60’s themed McDonalds along with all the fancy suits… Continue reading Burgers and X-Rays